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wow [Aug. 28th, 2005|08:15 pm]
[mood | thoughtful]
[music |"the clerks" movie]

hmm....wow....i just read the last entry....about a year ago....beginning of senior year....everything was different...it was about to be my 17th birthday...i had two best friends who i thought would always be there...i desperatrly wanted to go to ithaca college...i thought it was going to be the best year ever...after all i was a senior and that was supposed to be awesome....well...it turned out that it wasnt.

i lost the two best friends...i dont know why...i dont think i ever will....we kind of just stopped talking when semesters switched....then i findm out from other people that they are telling people shit about me. i got accepted to ithaca--into the communications school--which is almost impossible to get in, then i found out that it is awfully expensive to go there. i didnt mind the work of high school--it as just that i was sick of the cattiness, bitchiness, and people worrying waaaaaaaaay too much about what others thought of them.

and what am i doing right now? sitting in my lemoyne dorm room with the two nicest roomies ever. and it is almost my 18th b-day. i guess that i am writing this for myself. i dont think anyone will look at this. but ya no what--i dont care. everything has changed. especially me. i just honestly dont give a shit about the high school west genny life that is now done and over and i am not going to let it bother me that some people havent realized that this isnt high school anymore.

so..this is for starting over. i still have the most amazing boyfriend ever. i know he will always be there. but this is a new time in my life. i am letting go--but i will still be me. thank you for reading this

-joanna
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(no subject) [Sep. 25th, 2004|07:30 am]
[mood | blah]

whooooooooooo!!!!!!! wednesday, september 29th is my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


other than that i have nothing to say other than im on my way to ithaca college in about 5 minutes
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2004|09:00 am]
[mood | content]

so its now labor day...and its the last day of summer vacation...and all i hafta say is wow...this was an incredible summer on the whole....but lots of shitty things have taken place...but i seriously have learned who my true friends are...kt and danielle...i love you girls so much...you guys seriously mean everything to me and i would be lost without you....we're definately gonna make our senior year very memorable cuz ya no we had some awesome times these past 2 months....darien lake, playgrounds, just hanging out listen to ashlee!!!...but also i had to say goodbye to some ppl who i love so much...tree and dave....i love both of you...and dave--you know that i am always here for you and whatever u need just tell me...lookin back on the summer i also kinda feel like a lil slut...i really had like a different guy each week after the whole matt situation....but is now over....honestly tho...im completely stopping my week-long guy infatuations....cuz....i seriously have fallen in love the most incredible guy ever....hes so incredibly amazing and the most romantic person ever....plus everybody thinks hes wicked hot too...which is only an added bonus...MICHAEL KENNETH HOGAN.....I LOVE YOU!!!
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(no subject) [Aug. 14th, 2004|11:25 am]
[mood | tired]

i love my girls so much!!!! kt and danielle are the bestest ppl ever and i have no clue what i would do without them!!!! walking around darien lake in the rain was so much fun....scary when random guys kept coming up to us...haha...."pet my fish"...."what? u cant talk to me?"....having guys that work there give us their number and sn....the caricature guy hitting on me...all in good fun....best part was kt crying on the superman.....im sry hun...i love u and i'll hold ur hand for u netime u want me to!!! (dont get me wrong...i was scared shitless in line...seeing as how i hate drops with a passion and u all know what superman is known for...)...i ended up loving it....buuuuuuuuuuut now im gonna head back to bed cuz i am completely exhausted cuz mike and chad didnt leave till like 4 in the morning and me and kt didnt go to sleep until much closer to 5
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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2004|08:52 pm]
[mood | crazy]
[music |maroon 5!!!]

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....this is me not wanting to do my goal-setting project for health...














...this is still me not wanting to do it....






.....stiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiillllllllll bored....







.....god damn health class...




......why is this class needed to graduate?!?!.....





I DONT WANNA DO THIS PROJECT!!!!!!!!!!!



how come iced coffee at dunkin donuts costs so much more than regulare coffee?? is ice really that expensive? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand....i said not iced/.....yet they gave me it iced newayz....and me not wanting to hurt ne1's feelings didnt say nething.....grrr....i really need to be more assertive
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(no subject) [Aug. 8th, 2004|01:21 pm]
[mood | thoughtful]
[music |slow motion!]

for warning:

THIS ENTRY IS ME RAMBLING ON ABOUT NOTHING...I AM BORED


ok...so i had a very pleasent visitor at 2 in the morning....it was very much enjoyed...:)....but heres the rambling about nothing...so since im such a dork and have a radio in my shower i was of course listening to it...buuuuut i was getting rather pissed off cuz the only station that was coming in was 93Q...now i dont really have a problem with that station its just that its not exactly my first choice...i finally give up on trying to get z89 or 107 and settled on that...so...i realized that i just dont like nickelback...no particular reason y...i just plain old dont like them...then that guys voice saying "93quuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" played inbetween songs and i waws like "wow..thats obnoxious" then an avril lavigne song came on and once again i said to myself...hmm...i dont like this either...i then proceeded to think it sounds like shes singing out her nose and she really isnt all that good...but i cant say that sorta stuff cuz we all know that i have the most horrible voice on the face of this earth...then some commercials where i didnt really pay attention...back to music...and back to realizing that wow...im a pretty harsh person this morning...i dunno...finally i turned my radio off and just stood there for another good 35 minutes under the water thinking about stuff...
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(no subject) [Aug. 7th, 2004|04:04 pm]
..but tonite i really realized how absolutely amazing it is to have my 2 best friends kt and danielle here for me....i know this is gonna be a classic cliched line....but i love those 2 girls so much...but have u ever just wanted to go back to the begining and start life again...however, ONLY knowing what u know now?.....i hate to say that i think that almost everyday of my life...however at the same time i think to myself that maybe this is all happening because i need to know this and how many times i say to myself "what the fuck just happened" like i come home at night and ill lay down in my bed and ill just be like omg....and just wonder why everything is flying by so fast...and the whole thing with matt leaving early i was so pissed off at the army for taking him away from me early...but i think it is for the best...this way i wasnt counting down the days....it was just one morning "can u work for me tonite....i have to leave" and this is complete rambling but ya no....o well....this past week has been a royally fucked up week...but enjoyable none the less....its been amazing...its been shitty....and its been everywhere in between....its scary thinking that summer is once again coming to an end...really quickly....and im scared as hell about so many things....i cant wait for high school to be over yet at the same time i know that i will have so many things change....i know i cant be scared of the future...it only makes it worse....what im scared about is losing the people i love....but i guess because i love them means i shouldnt lose them....but tonite ended up being the most memorable nite of my entire life....and i wouldnt give up nething to not have had this happen....kt and danielle...i love you girls and i know u will always be around and like me and kt said earlier...when we picture our wedding day the only 2 ppl that are in there for sure are you two standing next to me...we will be best buds forever....the little trio....and we will always manage to get ourselves into some sort of trouble




thats what was on myspace
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(no subject) [Aug. 7th, 2004|12:21 am]
[mood | thoughtful]
[music |311]

look at the most recent blog on myspace....link above
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(no subject) [Aug. 6th, 2004|03:53 pm]
[mood | cold]
[music |lloyd banks]

wwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! things can turn around so fast and since wednseday that has been proven....AND I LIKE IT DAMMIT!!!...weird how some things turn out and if ya just let it go who ends up where....wow...im weird...and its august and its cold...
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(no subject) [Aug. 3rd, 2004|12:07 pm]
i miss him already!!! and hes been gone like 14 hours!!!!


buuuuut luckily i have a beautiful red headed to go boy-shopping with today!! gotta love danielle....
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AHHHHHHH [Jul. 31st, 2004|02:30 pm]
[mood | infuriated]

I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF EVERYBODY AND STUPID BULL SHIT....PPL GET OVER YOURSELVES! THIS WORLD HAS WAY TOO MUCH UNEEDED DRAMA....FUCK ALL OF YOU...IM SICK OF THIS

sry matt...but this is mainly directed towards you...but dont feel left out cuz there are two other penises that this is also for

adamacoustic
You're "You Know How I Do", you're always
tired and upset and you won't take
anyone's crap.


Which taking back sunday song are you?
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(no subject) [Jul. 29th, 2004|09:31 am]
yup....i was rite....i got screwed over once again....fuck guys...they suck newayz
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2004|09:12 am]
[mood | indifferent]
[music |dashboard]

la de da de da....i woke up like wicked early today for no reason what so ever...i have already taken a shower and im ready to go to school (early...i dont think this has ever happened be4 and prolly wont happen again) newayz...im bored...and i had nothing to do...and my dog is actually sleeping for once so i dont have to sit there making sure he doesnt chew/eat something hes not sposed to..hmmm...dave--thanx for letting me bitch to u last nite...it really helped and thanx for ur advice...nothing like an ex to help u out with current sitatuions....


ahhhhhhh..........i hate school! i dont wanna go!....well i dont hate it...its just that its all common sense and its really boring...and i think we know more than our teacher....atleast i have sasha there to talk to...


o yeah...im so good!...well...im not really...its just that becuase of me danielle found a guy she really likes! and yay! i feel good about that for soem reason...hmm....i dunno...i suppose i'll go watch some random tv for a half-hour be4 i go
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(no subject) [Jul. 25th, 2004|02:35 am]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |the waves crashing on the rocks]

so ok....its a lil after 2:30 in the morning and i am sitting down on the dock at the lake with my bro's laptop and quite a nice buzz goin on if i do say so myself while every1 else is literally passed out cuz they r so fucking wasted inside...i would have to say that i am the only one who can walk...much less even stand up at this point...

newayz...sitting out here alone...with the exception of my dog at my side is giving me such a time to think...i dunno...rite now i just looked up and there's a half moon out there and so many stars...its incredible....but sitting here i have come to the conclusion that everything is going exactly how i wasnt planning on things going...and the worst part about it is that i honestly love it...let me explain myself here...

a couple of days ago there was the whole matt entry posted (not the journal entry rite be4 this but two down)...where it sounded like i was basically declaring my love for him....well...i wasnt...i was simply saying the things that im gonna miss when he goes away...but in the meantime i told myself that i wasnt gonna get involved with other guys just because i always seem to end up getting hurt and it only turns out shitty in the end...buuuuuuuuut....i have met this other kid (aj) who....in only a week....has managed to seem like the perfect guy of my dreams who i have always wanted...friday nite me and danielle hung out with him and his friend nick...we went down to that east hill castle park and they just played their guitars for us...it was so adorable and aj was absolutly amazing...one song that he sang has been stuck in me head and is still stuck in my head at the moment...and i absolutly love it....god dammit...im such a sucker for a guy playing his acoustic guitar for me...ive always wanted it to happen...y am i such the hopeless romantic type? but after that we went to fratellis for pizza then out to the blvd where we met up with a bunch of his friends...here i would have to say that i felt completely out of place and i was sorta uncomfortable at first but that waws quite alrite becuz he was holding me all nite long and i felt so completely wonderful and amazing in his arms....then we just chilled back at my house...omg...ya no when ur shirt smells like them after they leave....isnt that just the most awesome thing ever?....yeah i think so...im a dork...but what is going so wrong here is that i think i am falling for him...when i really dont think i should be...and the worst part is that i wanna fall for him...i wanna see him again so bad...i wanna lay there in his arms again....(after they left me and danielle were talking and of course she agreed with me on the fact that he is beyong absolutly gorgeous...but i asked her if she thought he was into me at all...and i was so happy when she said that we looked like we had been together for a while the way he was just holding on to me and we looked so comfortable with one another...and she said that she hasnt seen me smile that much in so long) but...out of drunken confidence i sent him a text message earlier in the nite...and now...im sitting here staring at my phone wondering y the hell i did it...i mean i meant what i said...its just that i dunno...i dont think i shoulda sent it...dammit...im not sposed to fall for another guy (cuz it always turns out that i get hurt in the end)...but i am...

since most ppl prolly saw this and said to themselves "aww fuck it...thats too long for me to read" i mite as well shut up now...i dunno thanx for reading it if u have gotten this far? ne advice?


"i'm so high that ur kiss mite kill me, so why dont u kill me, so i die happy."
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2004|09:30 am]
[mood | content]

ok....im like sposed to be getting ready to go to school.....but....i dont wanna go....hmmm...last nite around 11 this kid aj (not my ex aj....but a different one who's incredibly hot i mite add) came and visited me...i appreciated it since i was bored out of my mind sitting home alone...and i cant wait cuz friday nite we're goin out...hmmm....that whole thing with matt in the previous journal entry is still confusing as hell.....i figure im gonna make the most of the time that i have with him while hes still here and then see what happens from there....la de da de da...ok i should go get ready now but i dont wanna....

oh yeah....myspace is waaaaaaaay too addicting
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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2004|10:56 pm]
[mood |falling...]
[music |brand new]

wow...it has been a while since i wrote something with actual meaning in this thing...and dammit...i dunno what to say rite now...hmm...i felt quite lesbian-ish last week when i went to hooter’s two days in a row...the first time was with dave and like 17 other ppl for wing nite (i no...kinda pointless for me...but it was fun none the less”) and then the second time was for pats b-day with kt and danielle...ok...hmm...I love my love...yes joelle...thanx for making life so interesting...i love you till the day i die and ppl don’t realize that we will do ANYTHING for each other...but ok...what really has been on my mind has been matt...y does he have to go to the fucking army?!?! i no i shouldn’t get attached to him and i should push myself away from him but i cant help but falling for him more and more everytime i see him...back in april i didnt think it would become like this...and then everything that happened with donnie...but seriously...dammit i dunno...we hang out all the time and talk every nite if we’re not with each other...and everytime im with him its seriously like nothing in the world is wrong...i love falling asleep with him while he holds me in his arms...i love the way i can just bury my head in his chest and then he gently kisses my forehead...its so cute that he’s attempting to teach me how to play poker...i love how he comes over and plays with my dog...they r so adorable...its amazing how he knows that something is wrong just by the way i say hi...omg...i could go on FOREVER about everything that has made me fall for him...god dammit...y him? i mean...hes amazing but hes leaving for the army...that’s rite...THE GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING ARMY!!!!!!! i no im gonna write him letters all the time and he said hes gonna do the same for me...but obviously its just not the same as him being here...im gonna miss him soooooooooooooo much...omg...y am i worrying about this now? i should worry about this in august when he leaves...i no i will be counting the days till he comes home...omg...im crying...
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(no subject) [Jul. 8th, 2004|12:28 pm]
[mood | bored]
[music |matts voice on the phone]

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Personal Information
First Name//:joanna
Age//:i got 20 this past week...
Gender//:female
Nickname(s)//:jo, love, flojo but only to one person
Hair Color//:brown with blonde highlights
Hair Style//:curly or straight..depends on mood...rite now they r still in corn rows from the cruise
Eye Color//:brown but lately there has been a lot of green in them so maybe they're hazel
What is your favorite
Color//:PINK!
Game//:dont really have one...
Song//:currently its broken parachute by northstar
Music Video//:dont have one
Animal//:my puppy!
Sport//:i run track so am i obligated to say that?
Country//:dominica
Movie//:of all time: dirty dancing...at the moment: butterfly effect
Food//:peanut butter
Friends
Best//:tree, kt, danielle, and joelle
Funniest//:joelle
Coolest//:all of them!
Sweetest//:danielle
Kindest//:alissa
Annoyingest//:uhh?
Dullest//:none
Stupidest//:me
Most Intelligent//:tree
Athletic//:kt
Relationships
Boy(Girl)friend//:single
Are you in love right now//:no
Do you have a crush//:hehe
Do you have a stalker//:yeah
Do you miss someone right now//:very much
What do you do
At school//:skip...when im there i sleep
At home//:well im sitting at the computer rite now...but i seem to sleep a lot here too
Outside//:lots of things
When you first wake up//:throw off my covers
What _____do you hate
Food//:onions
Color//:puke green
Hair color//:bleach blonde (u know those ppl who have like gross strawy looking hair and then dark roots? yeah that pisses me off)
Tv show//:i dunno
Clothing style//:ppl who think they r all "individualistic" but really arent ie. all of those ppl who wear the shirt that says "u laugh at me cuz im different. i laugh cuz ur all the same"
Movie//:sry to offend ne1 in the above question but a movie that i hate hmm...cant think of one at the moment
Emotions Right Now
Are You Happy Right Now//:not really
Sad//:no
Grumpy//:sorta
Annoyed//:yeah
Angry//:yeah
Sick//:no
Lonely//:yeah
Bored//:yeah
Have you ever
Made your own religion//:no
Written backwards//:when im bored in school
Written your own magazine//:no
Drawn art//:tried
Got angry with a game//:yup
Played Lacrosse//:yup
Broken a bone//:yup
Dyed your hair//:yup
Put in contacts for no reason//:no
Swam alone//:yup
Things that come to mind when you read...
Intelligentence//:not me...maybe it would be me if i actually applied myself
Stupidity//:me
Depress//:zoloft
Blood//:vampire
Blue//:sky
Gray//:boring
Sword//:knights
Golf//:ben
Soccer//:my dad
Yellow//:the wizard of oz
Socks//:i hate them
Ribbon//:ribbon dancers!!! ne1 remember those?!?
Random Questions
Play Sports, if so, what ones//:i run track
Have a lot of friends//:a few really close friends
Write good//:i like to think so...
Eat a lot//:yup
Like the day Friday//:yeah
Like the month December//:no
Do you(or are you)
(DY)Give good advice//:i would hope so
(DY)Talk crap//:doesnt everybody?
(DY)Play a lot of games//:no
(DY)Wear hats//:not often
(DY)Like to be outside//:yeah
(AY) Always mad//:no
(AY) Always happy//:no
(AY) A good friend//:i think so
This or that (Last questions)
Night or day//:night
Snow or Rain//:rain
Stars or the Moon//:stars
Ocean or Pool//:depends...i like the beach but i hate salt water
Boat or Plane//:depends
Books or Magazines//:books
Yu-Gi-Oh Cards or Pokemon Cards//:uh?
Blonde or Black Hair//:black
Green or Blue Eyes//:green
Pants or Shorts//:pants
Pop or Rock//:depends on mood
Punk or Emo//:depends on mood
Tatoos or Piercings//:piercings
Necklace or Ring//:ring
Clouds or No Clouds//:clouds
Art or Literature//:literature
Jeans or Baggy Pants//:depends on mood
Singing or Dancing//:dancing
March or May//:may
Halloween or Christmas//:halloween
Coke or Pepsi//:pepsi
Hug or Kiss//:kiss...if its some1 special enough

Everything About You Survey brought to you by BZOINK!
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(no subject) [Jul. 7th, 2004|09:22 am]
[mood | blank]
[music |silence]

i feel completely betrayed....
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holy shit [Jul. 5th, 2004|03:11 pm]
[mood | drained]
[music |living end]

hmmm....just got back from the cruise....7 sentences explains it all

1) NO DRINKING AGE....ANYWHERE!

2) Carlos and Charlie's Bar in Aruba

3) Jolly Roger Party Cruise in Barbados

4) Senor Frogs in Puerto Rico

5) Lost my passport AND driver's license

6) i loooooooooooooooooooooooooove cute puerto rican boys (especially ones named alejandro....whoever said spanish class would never come in handy?!?!)

7) Not sharing a cabin with my parents...

major lack of sleep for the past week...so now im in my room sleeping
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a trip down memory lane... [Jun. 23rd, 2004|12:29 am]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |the clock ticking next to me and my tv 2 rooms down the hall]

hmm...what the hell do i have to say about tonite? i hung out with dave..and ya no what...so many memories of when we were together came flooding back and i didnt realize how much i missed him...but...yeah....me tree dave colin and two of their friends went to go see dodgeball....it was a pretty cool movie...i am NEVER getting in a car with colin ever again...its pretty funny but very scary....the lawn got driven on...once again...i dunno...all in all the past 2 days have fucking sucked man....and this week is turning out very hellish...only a couple days till i leave and i am very excited about that....school hasnt even been done a week yet i have already lost all track of what day it is....o well...

sandlot 246513: but i gotta get $5 from everone
SkaSweetie1021: for what?
sandlot 246513: but no t untill i figure ont when and where
SkaSweetie1021: prize money?
sandlot 246513: for balls
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